I have known for the past oh, 30 something weeks that I was going to have a baby, but how do you really prepare yourself for that?
I don't think you can.
I had my first shower last weekend, thrown by some of my amazing friends, and I think it was there that it really hit me that I was going to be a mom.
I was at a baby shower for ME!
How did that happen?
Ok, well I know HOW it happened, but is there really not more to it than that?
I mean, should somebody interview me, or give me a test, or make me take a class, or at least make me fill out some kind of form?
You can't drive a car without taking a test.
You can't teach children without going to school for at least four years.
You can't even get a Food Lion card without filling out a form.
But in just six short weeks (or less, hopefully) I will be a mom. I will have, God willing, a beautiful, healthy baby that I will bring home and be responsible for for THE REST OF MY LIFE!
Can I do this?
Don't get me wrong, I have prayed long and hard for this child. I want her more than anything in the whole world.
I don't know - I've just recently started wondering if I can actually do this. I mean, you don't get a second chance at this whole "being a parent" thing.
What if I mess up?
What if I don't do it right?
I've never done this before.
I don't know what I'm doing.
sticking out her tongue - she's done this at every ultrasound
sucking her thumb
And, I'm sure you've noticed how 'chunky' she is. According to the ultrasound tech, Miss Becca is already weighing in at a whopping 5 pounds 8 oz. Prayers for me now would be nice:)
We are very excited that we are down to 6 weeks until our 'little miracle' will be here! JP and I can't wait to meet her and kiss on those big cheeks:)
I promise that I will post pictures from my showers....soon!
All of our love,